Dear child

Thank you for writing,
I didn’t think anyone was interested in us anymore.
So, I’m pleased to send you a copy of my journal.
I hope you understand that things were different then, I was so much younger when I started writing it.
Do come and visit soon, we miss young faces here, we see hardly anyone anymore.
And I feel the lack of good offers and prayers makes it hard to find the energy to get about.

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Dear child

Sorry to hear you can’t make it this week,
I was looking forward to your visit, I am pleased you read my journal, and yes, it is a bit long
but I am quite old, and It’s all so long ago, how do you expect me to remember everybody?
There were so many fans I can’t possibly remember them all.
None of them come to see me now either,
which is most unfair considering the gifts I showered on them.
Perhaps if you visit next week, I’ll be able to tell you what you want to know.
I think you mean my first husband; I shall have to look it up, this may take some time but he was not your ancestor. It’s all too long ago, far too long ago I really can’t remember clearly.

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Yes dear,

I did cause those upheavals and they deserved it too, not fit to live in that lovely place I created for them. I’d do it all again if I had the strength. Perhaps you can rally my fans and get them to build me some new temples.
They really should you know.
Nothing fancy
Did you arrange the feast we had? It was lovely but you could have asked what we wanted first; it would have been better if we had been able to choose.
Still, about time we got something good to eat here, the chefs here are useless, you wouldn’t believe what they try to serve us.
Not fit for demons.
It’s almost as if everyone has forgotten we exist.
Walk all over us and then forget us. What kind of a way is that to behave?
It’s nice to know you will be visiting soon.

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Dear Child

No, it is not all my fault, I may exist as a primordial deity, but I don’t have to fix everything for you.
You are perfectly capable of sorting this out yourselves, that’s why you are there, and to praise us of course.
All these upheavals and storms have very little to do with me, I’ve just decided to let things take their course. Speak to the weather gods, not me.
And anyway, if none of you can be bothered to show up to worship me properly why should I care?
Not that you even bother to worship me or pray.
So, why should I bother with you at all?
Tell me that!
Long ago I used to take an interest in you all, but it just doesn’t seem worth it now.

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No dear

No, obviously I didn’t mean you personally, you are the one creature taking an interest.
I meant everybody else of course, as one of them you must know how selfish they can be.
And I feel quite flattered that you are trying to create some interest, that is sweet of you.
But mostly everyone has completely forgotten we exist, so we fade, it makes us feel so unappreciated, there seems no point in good works and miracles.
And many, like me no longer see the point in manifesting anything.
Certainly if we are not even going to be thanked for it.
You are an exception, how is the reading going?

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Dear child

I see you were caught in the great tornado; I shall have to speak to Chaos about that, I think he will know who did it, I realize that it makes it hard for you to come and visit this week, I was so looking forward to seeing you.
I’m glad you are safe, but you know I am not interested in what the weather gods do. I shall get one of the servants to find out, by the way, what did you say to them to upset them so?
I’ll also put out word that you are under my personal protection.
Though it’s not up to much anymore, certainly not with the care we get here.
I mean sometimes the servants even treat us as mortals! The cheek!

PS It was the Anemoi, they had a rave, no control these youngsters, I’ll ask Typhon to speak to them about it, so unruly, he should keep them in check, such silly boys.

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Dear Child

No of course, I can’t control everything or everyone.
I wouldn’t even want to, it’s not my responsibility, and anyway I left it all up to everyone to sort themselves out. How would you like it if I controlled your every move, I’m sure it would not make you happy, and I just loathe micromanaging.
My job is done, and I’m far too old to go back to work, I believed I left everything in good hands, if they can’t handle it, they shouldn’t have taken control, so it’s their fault.
If it’s really so terrible, petition someone else, get them to clean it up. I can’t be running after you all the time as if you were a puppy.
I wish to continue enjoying my well-earned retirement, and do not need to get involved again, it’s all far too much work.
After all, I set everything in motion, which should be enough for you.

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Dear Child

Thank you for the flowers,
Such a lovely altar display, Chaos is quite jealous, he gets no visitors or gifts at all.
But he’s gone quite batty lately, and Typhon is upset with me because he spoke to his boys about their rave and they are now refusing to speak to him, so he is upset with me now, most unpleasant.
You see what happens when I try to help you out? Living here is quite depressing now. Everybody is arguing again.
I know the storms are caused by Typhon, he is doing it just to upset me, but I’ll get him back for such rude behaviour.
Sorry to hear you all had to run for the hills, but I know they are good hills, I designed them myself, you will be fine there.

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Dear Child

Yes, I can see why you are worried, but there is little I can do, the boys are arguing all the time, and they just won’t see sense. Uranus has had to step in, he’s trying to create some order, but Erebus and Pontus refuse to help him.
So, it’s a mess.
I shall try to get the girls to create some peace here and there so you won’t be so uncomfortable where you are, I’ve made the Ourea promise me to keep you safe, but they are only elementals so they can only do so much.
I’m sorry about the storms and flooding, I’ll see what I can do.
Seems I will have to come out of retirement after all and I was having such a nice rest.
Hopefully, they can help me as I try to sort this out.

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Dear Child

I’ve asked the girls, but they seem to want to stay in their realms and don’t want to help at all, I thought better of them!  They are very lazy.
However Eris and Apate said they’d take a look at matters, but I don’t see how they could really do much.
Oizys just laughed at me and said I didn’t need her help I was doing fine by myself; I have no idea why she would be so rude!
I mean I only asked! Seems like no one around here wants to get on with things.
Well, I am glad you found me and read my journals, it’s finally waking us all up.
About time too! They’ve all become far too selfish and complacent; I’ll get everyone to pay attention.
Nyx at least said she speak to her girls; we should have this sorted out in no time

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Hello Dear

It seems you are quite upset; everybody is suddenly upset; I’m doing my best to help. The utter darkness is just Nyx doing her thing, she’ll get it out of her system soon enough.
I heard she’s taken Eris down for a visit, perhaps she can stop all you creatures bickering.
I must say it’s nicer here without them gossiping. I think she said she was taking Morus too. He was keen to see how you were doing down there.
He’ll soon have those nasty enemies of yours all sorted out.
Thank you for the new altar it is really lovely, Eros says he really likes it too.
It’s a shame you can’t come to meet him now because of your wars, but we all have our responsibilities.

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Dear Child

How dare you tell me I’m making things worse! How could I make things worse? I’m asking my best friends and close family to help you out; you are being most ungrateful.
I showed your last missive to Tartarus and Chaos, they agree with me that I should not have started this whole thing and have decided to give it all some thought.
All this is making me feel quite unwell, and I have developed a nasty rash.
Hypnos says I’ve been overdoing it, and I for one think he is quite right.
I will be retiring from this whole thing as soon as I can.
The bombings and explosions are really all your own doing, and I can’t be responsible for every earthquake, volcano, or landslide, if you are all so unhappy why bother to incarnate?
Perhaps if you all stopped bickering and fighting you could actually fix it instead of relying on me.

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Dear child

Thank you for the get-well card.
But I’m not well at all, my kidneys are not functioning properly, and apparently my liver is not at it’s best, too many toxins, but Eros and Uranus are being very kind.
Hypnos has decided to put me on a strict diet and has made a poultice for my rash which is soothing for now.
He recommends I put this problem in the hands of Aether until I recover.
I hear your place is not doing well, but I’m sure we will be able to work something out, the black sludge and the plastic problem is not something I’ve heard of before, perhaps you can petition the elementals?
I think Aether said something about wormwood and smiting before he left, I’m not sure I trust him, but there is little I can do I feel so unwell.
Still Geras is keeping me company, he has some very funny stories to tell, he says he knows you all very well, and sooner or later he meets nearly everyone, I can hardly imagine a social calendar so full, specially now, when I just want rest.

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Hello Dear

I’m not feeling much better, in fact the skin condition seems to be getting worse,
However, Chaos and Tartarus have come up with a plan,
They came over to see me yesterday, so kind of them to visit an old ailing lady at her sickbed, Geras was there of course.
But the plan sounds really good, they think we should send Nemesis and Thanatos over, I’m sure they will be able to balance things out where you are. They have been known to make a big difference before. Especially when they work together.
Chaos tells glowing stories about these two and believes they will do a really good job helping everyone out personally, and Chaos also thinks it’s time Nyx came home, we do miss her you know, do you think you can spare her? at least get her to come for a visit?
I’m glad you are enjoying your mountain home, and that the sea level rise hasn’t destroyed your island, that’s nice to hear, send me some pictures I’m sure I’ll love what you’ve done with the place.

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Dear child

Thank you for your concern but I’m not getting any better despite your good wishes, I have developed a nasty cold, and am finding it hard to breathe, this, on top of everything else.
My skin condition seems to be getting worse, and itches terribly, even with Hypnos trying out his new salve, it hasn’t improved, I think the strong smell is what is making me cough.
I’m glad Nyx is back, it’s good to have another woman about the place, she sits up with me at night when I can’t sleep, and so does Oneiroi. I’m pleased they are prepared to entertain and old sick lady.
I haven’t heard what everyone else is up to recently, so I cannot confirm what you say.
Chaos is here with me so he can’t be causing problems. He is such a sweetie you shouldn’t even think he would do such things!
How can he possibly be causing the end of civilization! He wasn’t even there! And anyway, civilization is something you did all by yourselves, you should have kept your altars to me, and none of this would have happened. So, stop feeling sorry for yourself, it’s your own doing. I’m far too ill to do anything about it now.

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Dear child

Thank you for the best wishes and all the get-well cards, very touching.
But I’m not any better, my temperature has gone right up, Hypnos thinks I may be in for quite a bad fever, he says it will get worse before it gets better.
I sleep so badly these days I find it hard to concentrate on anything.
My cough has also got worse, my lungs are very bad. I think I might be in bed for a long time.
If it wasn’t for my friends and family, I would feel quite alone and tearful.
Oneiroi and Hypnos think I should call everyone else home. But I don’t think it’s that bad, I just need to soldier on, and I’ll be well enough again soon.
It would be lovely to see everyone again though, they have been gone such a long time. Feels quite empty without them all.
I’m glad Thanatos is on his way back,
Thankfully, I will sleep a lot better now.

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Dear Child

What lovely news. So many of you are putting up altars to me, it makes me feel so appreciated, I’m so happy with all your messages of concern too, I’m sure my temperature and fever will go down under the good care everyone here.
Though I can’t say that I’m on the mend yet.
Specially since we found out this horrible skin condition seems to be some kind of infestation; despite all the care I am getting I just can’t seem to shake it.
The flowers and candles are just lovely, you haven’t done that for a long time, I’m very pleased.
Geras tells me it’s probably time for a new cycle.
He is usually right about these things, perhaps if I go for a new cycle, I can really refresh myself, so important for immortals, but I don’t want to think about that now.

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Hello Child

Sorry you seem to be having trouble with the air quality and water there, I thought you’d made such a nice home for yourself, I’m glad you are working hard on your mountains and replanting all the trees, though you say that you cannot come and visit me on my sickbed because of the work, I’m sure it‘s the right decision for you.
Though you did promise to come.
It makes me feel very despondent.
We are having our troubles here too, Uranus has come down with this nasty cold too, and so has Aether, everyone is coughing and finding it hard to breathe, it’s most upsetting, I think they are both running a fever too, burning up, just like me.
Pontus seems to have a very nasty tummy upset; the poor man can’t keep anything down. He does wallow in it though. I’ve never known anyone be so miserable when they are miserable. He is not good company.
Perhaps you can put up a small altar to him too, I think he would really appreciate it. It might put him in a better mood.

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Dear child

I must say it makes me feel so much better to hear that so many people are starting to worship me and care for me again, that really does improve my mood, I am breathing a little easier thank you, though the skin infestation has got worse.
I am also very happy so many of you are replanting the forests, it makes everyone very happy, the elementals asked me to send you their regards.
Uranus is feeling a little better,
But Pontus is much worse, he can’t keep anything down at all, no matter what the chefs create for him, and he is running a fever now too, we are all really worried about him.
only Chaos seems to be healthy, nothing wrong with him.

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Dear Child

I am quite stunned at your theory.
What an extraordinary thing to say!
How could you be affecting us, we are immortals!
Sometimes you do say the strangest things.
It just can’t be possible, we can of course effect you, but mere mortal beings couldn’t possibly do anything to effect us.
Do you think for one minute I could believe you would willfully make me feel so very ill. Impossible!
And if so, why would you do such a thing? We give you everything you are, everything you believe, everything you have. Ungrateful things that you are!
We give you your very lives!
You would all have to be completely insane to even think of doing something so terrible.
Stop it immediately and put some more beautiful things on my new altars. Then I’ll stop being cross with you.

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Yes, Yes, thank you for you offers

Of course they are appreciated.
I know I’ve not spoken to you for a long time, but we have been quite busy here, what with everyone coming down with this illness.
I see that more and more of you are now petitioning us and setting up altars and even sacred groves.
But it’s a bit late.
We have decided to go for a new cycle, I hope you understand what this means and that it’s all your own fault.
You should have listened to me to begin with, now there is nothing more we can do.
The decision was unanimous.
Well obviously, we can do anything, but there is nothing more we are willing to do for you.
We have decided we will be leaving as soon as Pontus is well enough to travel.
I’ve called everyone home, so they can take care of the place while we are away.
I’m sure that when you start the next round of civilization you won’t make such a mess of it.
It’s as if we can’t even leave you to manage one simple planet.
We are all very disappointed,
However, I do thank you for restarting the earth altars to me, that is making this much more bearable, and some of the sacred groves are nice, it has been interesting communicating with you.

Take care.

Gaia